Alright, I see you. Yes you. The one who never reads any of my fashion posts but makes their way over to my blog the moment you know I’m going to spill some tea.
But that’s okay! I’m just happy you stopped by at all, and yes, I am planning on sharing some personal information today (rare occurrence) and giving you all a bit of a life update. Its been a while since I last checked in with you regarding where I’m at in my life and what I’ve been up to, however it’s going to be difficult to go into too much detail. I’ve been delaying writing this for a few weeks as a lot is still up in the air and not really ready for me to share. I may write in code here and there and keep it very general, but if you’re keen, read on and I’ll do my best to fill you in.
Let’s start with blog news.
Spoiler: There is none (great introduction hay?). Lately I’ve been quieter online then I would like to be. Reason being, I’m extremely busy and if I don’t have any content that I’m happy with, I’m not going to send out stuff for the sake of sending stuff out. I tried that last year and went through a phase of just deleting a whole bunch of content off my blog and social media pages as I just didn’t feel like it fitted my brand or reflected who I am. As it is I can waffle on for ages on my blog, and that’s with a topic when I have something to say – can you imagine how bad it is when I’m just writing for the sake of writing? Long winded, pointless and pretty boring posts are not really the vibe I envision for my blog. I also haven’t been doing many brand collaborations this year in comparison to last year so the content going out has 100% been my own. Again, based off of not having enough time and perhaps the creative vision I would like, I haven’t had external factors pushing me to write posts or create content.
I know I’m no internet sensation but despite all of the above I know there are a handful of readers who genuinely enjoy my blog and always make an effort to interact with me on my socials. Whether I’m posting everyday or once a month, they’re there. That really warms my heart and is so encouraging to know, so thank you.
Life through the eyes of social media is also a constant challenge as I find it impossible to not question what I’m doing in comparison to other people. Let me just say straight up that I don’t want my pages to reflect other peoples in any way. I want to be original and different, however self-doubt can get to the best of us. Sometimes I just need to take a step back from it all and get out of my own head. At least, that’s what I try do.
I’m not really ready to explain a whole bunch of other issues that I’ve been dealing with, relating to the above in some ways, in terms of my mental health and all the modern day complexes that go with it. I’ve always been very ‘together’ and in control, so this new chapter in my life is all about learning to be okay with the fact that I can’t always have control and that I have to just let things be. I’m also still trying to figure a bunch out for myself before I share it with others, but when I get there, you’ll be the first to know.
So, there you have it. Those are all my excuses for disappearing online for a while here and there. I promise I’m working on being consistent.
In other news, I’ve just got back from a week in Dubai visiting my sister, which if you follow me on Instagram you definitely know about (sorry not sorry for the travel spam). I haven’t gone traveling since my Thailand trip for my 21st Birthday so it was a much needed adventure and great for the soul to have a change of scenery. What I will say though, is that I’m definitely a creature of habit. I had an amazing time away but was so happy to get back home. Give me my bed and doggies please and thank you.
There’s a lot of other information I wish I could delve into and ask for your advice with but, as mentioned, for many reasons that’s not possible right now. Especially when discussing topics that involve other people, I feel it’s only fair to not share too much for the sake of protecting their privacy and what they may or may not want to be public knowledge. What I will say is that I can definitely feel that a season of change is upon me. With work, my relationships, lifestyle etc etc. There’s a lot that’s coming to an end, a lot that’s changing and a lot that’s just starting. For some people that is probably an exciting concept but for me, a boring comfort zone control freak, it’s very daunting. I know that staying in your comfort zone never allows for anything exciting and fresh to come about so, again, I’m working hard to be optimistic and embrace all that this new season in my life my bring.
Hmmm… What else do you guys wanna know? I’m not good at sharing personal information okay 😂 For those curious people always interested in my boyfriend; Chad and I are doing well and have had a relatively ‘normal’ relationship since his move to Cape Town. Compared to all that went on in the past, these days we are as normal as they come. He’s doing so well in his job, he’s just bought a house and we’re both pressing into church together. I’m loving having him so close and literally can’t fathom how we did long distance for so many years, I just want him around all the time!
If I could sum up this past month in my life it would be down to, you never know what is coming around the corner. Amidst all the struggles we all face on a daily basis, we’re all just trying to be the best versions of ourselves and live the life we’ve always wanted. I know it sounds so cliche but it really all boils down to having a positive mindset and embracing where you are. Your life could change in an instant, or it could be the same for a very long time. Either way you can’t keep postponing your happiness for when something good comes your way, find the good in where you already are.
Also, this is not me preaching to you, this is me telling myself this. I have a tendency to think along the lines of, “I’ll be happy when this happens” or “I’ll be happy when I get this one last thing”. A habit which we all know is no way to live and certainly no way to be happy. Regardless of circumstances in my life I want to make it my main priority to embrace every day and be happy in the now 🙂